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The rantings and ravings of a crazy coyote

1/6/12 02:02 pm - Writer's Block: Occupied

Have you participated in Occupy Wall Street? Why or why not?


The short answer is I have a job and don't have time. The long, more complex answer is: I'm not sure I agree with the movement. I mean, yes, I feel like there IS a problem in this country, where a lot of people are making a lot of money by exploitation and there are a LOT of people unemployed and struggling lately, and I support what I think the main idea of the protest is. But the whole thing is so...disorganized. I get it, there's a lot of different people from a lot of different backgrounds coming together to protest the situation they're in, which is similar, but they just don't have a good enough idea of what they're all fighting for.

There is a problem in this country. Our minimum wage is too low, companies are exploiting their workforce to make bigger and bigger profits, corporations are being allowed to send many of our jobs overseas*, our government is wasting money and bailing out corporations, there are too many kids graduating with college degrees and tons of debt who can't find jobs because EVERYONE has a degree now, etc. There's no easy solution, but a bunch of people being goofy/dumb and camping out on wall street aren't going to encourage people in charge to look for solutions.

Really, this protest would be a lot better if those protesting would kick out the idiots in costume who are just there to fuck around and the kids who went to college on daddy's money and now don't want to work, and came up with a concise list of issues they'd like to see tackled.

(( hi everybody. there isn't much going on in my life right now. :x sorry I haven't had much to say lately ))

11/23/11 10:28 pm - Writer's Block: Occupy Wall-et

How much debt do you have?

Not much, I suppose. I owe $1900-ish on my car, and I usually have a $200-ish balance on my credit card but I use it for everything so the balance shifts a lot :O

Ark, on the other hand...buuuh. :T why I ever let the dog drive is a mystery.

IN OTHER NEWS...I still check LJ daily, just haven't had much to say? I'm really busy running my business, I guess. I tweet a whole fuckload, and most of that, in retrospect, isn't really LJ worthy. Nobody really wants to know about my drunken adventures with my room mates, or all the random day to day crap.

Furfright was rather awesome. Spent most of it hanging with friends instead of working, which was a nice break. Got a lot of awesome compliments on my suits, which was awesome <3

MWFF was a different story, I guess. Good money, and very glad I got to spend so much time with friends i don't see often ( especially my room mates, who are from Australia! ) but all in all, it's a weird con for me. I just don't know many people who regularly go, so I find myself awkwardly hanging around alone. Plus it's hard to meet up with people, so I missed most of the people I wanted to see anyways :/ But again, spent a lot of time hanging with a few good friends, which was nice C:

Next up are the holidays. Bleh. It says something about my family that they have to schedule dinner early to compensate for my relative's drinking schedules. :P Christmas is always really awkward for me. I'm not close to my family and never know what to get them. Maybe since Ark is 21 we'll buy fancy wine or something.

Anyways, I think i need to fin a program that'll send my tweets to LJ, so that way it doesn't seem like I'm totally dead. Although, TBH, I'm sure that would get annoying fast. xD

8/13/11 11:27 am - LJ is where my memes live

Did that personality thing everyone else is doing O:


You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.

You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.


You are good at solving problems, coming up with original ideas, and seeing connections between things, connections that most other people miss. People with a high score on the "creative" trait often are employed in such fields as finance and scientific research, and enjoy avant garde and classical music as well as literary fiction and scholarly non-fiction.

You do not shun abstractions and concepts in favor of the concrete and tangible.


You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.

You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.


You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.


You strive to master everything you undertake. You tend to learn quickly and do not shy away from challenges.

You are not a "que sera sera" type of person, nor do you go easy on yourself when attempting to master a new skill or get a job done.


You are a quick study. You generally don't need to have things explained to you more than once. When presented with a problem, you will often have an instant understanding of where to look for the solution.

You do not take your sweet time when presented with a new task to complete or problem to solve. You don't avoid assignments that require you to learn new skills.


You are thoughtful, rational, and comfortable in the world of ideas. People find you interesting to talk to. You're the living embodiment of the saying "You learn something new every day." In general, those with a high score on the "intellectual" trait are employed in such fields as teaching and research, and are enthusiastic about reading, foreign films, and classical music.

You do not avoid abstract conversation, experimenting with new ideas, or studying new things. It bores you to stick to the straight and narrow of what you already know.


You see the world clearly and objectively. You know there's a logical explanation for everything, and a logical solution to every problem; which is why you're such a good problem-solver.

You do not take your sweet time when presented with a new task to complete or problem to solve. You don't avoid assignments that require you to learn new skills.


You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.


You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the "assertive" trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others.

You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task, or avoiding confrontation.


Also I'm sorry I never post anymore ;; I twitter a lot, and it seems silly to post things in 2 places. Still here, reading friends page and communities, but not a lot of posting going on

4/21/11 03:25 am - Writer's Block: Available: 3 bedroom, 2 bath, with hot and cold running chills

Would you live in the perfect house or apartment rent-free if you found out a brutal murder had taken place there and it was rumored to be haunted? Why or why not?

Yeah. I dig ghost stories and haunted houses and stuff. Also, while I love to think ghosts and stuff exist, I don't really believe in them and I doubt I'd ever turn down a rent free living situation based on superstition :U

4/17/11 12:35 am - Writer's Block: Better than leftovers

If you had to eat the same thing for dinner every night for the next year, what would you choose?

motherfuckin PIZZA.


ideally, from Sal's, or Market Basket's bake 'n rise pizza <3

2/27/11 05:30 pm

Things I did today:

Woke up at 4 pm
Accidentally insulted my favorite artist. Back to being internet silent, because no matter what I say, all of my opinions are terrible.

Go self, you rock.


12/17/10 02:08 pm - It's that time of year again

Anime Boston RAGEFACE time.

idk. I don't have a lot of rage left for this particular pile of dumbfuck. They've pretty much proven year after year that the woman running it is just so incredibly incompetent that it's not going to get any better until she's gone.

She apparently decided that anyone asking for an 8 foot table and nothing less DID NOT GET A TABLE. Not even included in her list or the waitlist, their applications were simply thrown out e__e why...even fucking offer it then, I wonder?

They continue to offer cheap table and small increments of space because 'everyone should get a chance'. NO. NO. YOU FAILED. GTFO. NOT everyone gets a chance. Run your damn artists alley like everyone else. Charge $50-60 for half a table, and $70-80 for a full table, include reg in that, and you will INSTANTLY weed out all the derpy little kiddies who only want to come for a day, don't have anything to sell, and essentially waste everyone's time e__e

And if that's not enough to limit the number of people signing up, do what other large anime cons do and FILTER. If someone can't prove they actually have something to sell, don't bother giving them space! We're all tired of seeing kids in the alley selling $1 sketches and getting bored by friday afternoon, leaving an empty table all weekend e__e

Above all, STOP WITH THE SILLY 2ft TABLE SPACES. That's so dumb. Quality over quantity, and it would make the job of passing out tables and setting up the alley a million times easier!

Honestly, after 5 years of this, I'm so tired of the excuses from this woman and the general clusterfuck that is sign ups for this con. There's never any notice of the day of sign ups, though they instantly fill up, the woman running it OBVIOUSLY plays some sort of favorites, she's constantly complaining on the forums that we're so MEEEAAAANNNN for asking her to be competent and keep the list organized and not FUCK US ALL OVER, and generally has this wonderful grade school mentality of 'oh we need to make this super friendly and cheap for everyone!'.

JFC. Get someone competent in charge for a change anime boston. In the meantime, I will be going to FCN and FAU, because FURRIES know how to run their cons.

oh and fyi, we noticed none of the furs got tables this year ;3 your prejudice is showinggggg.

12/14/10 11:17 am

Dear downstairs neighbor kids

shut the fuck up, or the next time I hear you playing guitar or guitar hero or what ever the fuck it is you do at 4 am, I'm going to come down their and slap you little fuckers stupid. There is no reason for this noise. Oh, and stop fucking pounding on my damn door. I dunno if you were on your way out and bumped into it or what, but it went on for at least 20 minutes this morning, and I could hear you like you were sitting in my living room. NOT FUCKING OK. The last lady had a bunch of very young children, and still managed to keep them quieter than you loud fuckers, so I know it's not just the house. KEEP IT THE FUCK DOWN.

oh, and I know it's not just me being pissy. My landlord's girlfriend hears it too, and I guess there's really not a lot that can be done about it. :B BUT STILL. I'm getting really fucking tired of constantly hearing these kids in the middle of the night. I know their dad works nights, which is probably why they're always up being stupid, so I'm sure there's nothing that can be done about them being little shits, but I still wish they would shut up.

12/12/10 07:33 am - fursuit pet peeves

Because. I'm tired and irritable and I feel like hating on something. plus I have to stare at a picture of a bunny suit and it looks like a damn dog and it just annoys the piss out of me. e___e

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blah blah blah I am a grouchy bitch dog today >:| probably because my heat is being a pile of suck and I'm fucking tired of being cold.

12/7/10 11:58 am - SCORE


I found most of the Avatar: the last airbender DVDs at Building 19 yesterday for $4 each. :D FUCKIN AWESOOOOOMMMMEEEEEEE. Just the first 2 of each season, but still :B was an awesome score.


11/7/10 03:05 pm

I should just make this my new default icon. Fuckin Indiana Jones B)

Anyways. I organized a big fur meet last night. YAAAAAY. We got 16 people to show up to the local Denny's with less than 24 hours notice B) It was pretty rad.

However next time I am going to make it semi invite only. I.E. going to tell everyone I know who DOESN'T suck to bring their friends. Because while 13 people there were REALLY awesome, there were 3 people who just insisted on being LOUD, DUMB, and NOT TIPPING. All 3 of those are a big fucking NO in my Denny's, dammit >:|

But other than that, we had fucktons of fun x3 lots of sketchbook trades, lots of meeting new furs who I didn't realize were local, but who apparently ROCK HARDCORE. Also, Anec brought this doodle thing that erases when you hit a button, and it was just the most entertaining thing EVER. Eidy and I used it to pass secret notes about hating all the dumb people xD and of course, we drew DIIIIICKS.

Yes. More Denny's meets are SO needed. B) Maybe next time they'll let us use the big table and not make us take ALLLLLL the little tables :B

11/5/10 12:18 pm - Writer's Block: So much for counting sheep

What do you like to do when you can't get to sleep?

meh. Since this is always the case, I usually try to take advantage of it and get more work done. Usually try to stick with simple stuff like derpy badges or coloring, and generally stay away from the sewing machine or glue gun, since I've been known to cause serious injuries when tired :P Lately, though, I've taken up reading again, which is nice and relaxing. <3

In other news. HEY I'M BACK FROM FF. It was fun, though not as much fun as I suppose it would have been had I not worked my tail off, but I'm satisfied with what I did <3 Met a lot of local furs who very much rock, so I've been hanging out with them ever since I got back, and it's really nice to finally have a group of friends again. Too many of my old friends got stupid, and too many people I know are busy being responsible :C It's nice to know a few people free enough to have spontaneous get-togethers, but mature enough to be enjoyable company. Though it would be cool to hang out before midnight, but whatever. Ark's crazy work schedule can't really be helped.

Very excited for MFF in just under 2 weeks. WHEE. Got a suit to do, though I'm not overly concerned with my limited time. I'm already done the paws and a majority of the feet, so just the head left. I have 4 badges to do, and I think I'll stick with that instead of trying to drum up more preorders, though I think I will make a few tails to bring. I'm not sure how well that'll work in the AA, but we'll see I guess. Soooo need to do dealer's room next year, and at AC. :B too bad taxes are such a pain in the ass. Still can't get to the PA dept. of revenue for taxes owed like. 4 years ago. wth.

Uhm, other than the consplosion, I'm kind of flip flopping, life wise. Lot of ups and downs. Seems to be getting better, with the whole making good money and having good friends thing <3 May be moving soon-ish, but hopefully not as far as we originally planned. We're really hoping to find a good 2 bedroom in Nashua-area and some good roommates. Otherwise. Midwest-area, here we come. Though I love where we live now, so I dunno ;__;


10/5/10 04:14 pm

urf. Long day today ;___; I got up at 8 this morning so my mom could take me to the longest dentist appointment ever. Because my last dentist and orthodontist fucked up my teeth, and because I make probably the world's poorest food related decisions ( I have like....0 enamel on my teeth, and still put 5 sugars in my coffee, go me ), I got the joy of having all of my front teeth today replaced with crowns.

let me say that again. I got 6 CROWNS. At once. At 9 in the morning.

oh, and then I got to go have about 10 vials of blood drawn for various medical testing for my physical/to figure out for the 8 billionth time why I don't have periods.

I am not a happy puppy. Although at least I got free crepes out of it. And new front teeth, I guess. Not that I really had a ton of problems with the ones I already had, since it's all the other teeth that really hurt :< but hey, now my whole face gets to feel puffy and painful, oh boy!

they look good though. I think. I can't actually move my lips yet.

10/1/10 09:57 pm - Nitpicky people...gtfo

I dearly love the childfree community on LJ. I really do. They daily post things that are amusing, interesting, or informative. Not to mention it's a community of people who also fail to understand the magic of children that everyone else seems to see. Which is all cool and awesome, right?

Well, most of the time.

But MY GOD I have never seen a community that is so full of people who need to find SOMETHING to be offended about.

Here's an example. Somebody posts a COMPLETELY RELEVANT POST to the community. However, they make the mistake of using the words 'spanish person' somewhere in their posts ( in either a negative or positive connotation, it doesn't seem to matter ) and suddenly the main content of their post is COMPLETELY IGNORED in favor of a bunch of people going UM EXCUSE ME THIS IS OFFENSIVE YOU ARE A BAD PERSON.

Seriously? GET OVER IT. See the big picture of what's going on and stop fucking NITPICKING people's posts for the slightest hint of something not squeaky clean PC. >:|

It happens a lot on the customers_suck journal too, but not nearly as bad. I want to call someone out on it, but I generally try to stay quiet in communities because I KNOW my opinions are generally offensive and unpopular :)

9/25/10 05:24 am - Free Icon Day!

CLOSED! Thanks everyone!


Yes, you are reading it right, I am actually offering FREE ICONS. c: For the next 24 hours, feel free to put in your requests here!

Here's how it's going to go! Comment here with my special icon request form ( at the bottom ), and be sure to include a theme, pose or emotion for your icon. Everyone will get a sketch or inked icon, or a colored icon if you tip! They will be done at my own pace, but they will ALL be completed.


*You MUST include a theme, pose, or emotion for me to go on
*Please no copyrighted characters, video game characters, etc. I don't really follow games or movies, and looking up references for that kinda stuff is a PAIN
*All requests MUST be made in this journal entry to be valid
*I'd prefer not to have requests involving guns or complex machinery
*Unless it's a generic animal ( i.e. just a mouse, not a specific character ), PLEASE include a visual reference! If you don't have one, I'll still draw you an icon, but please consider coloring in a free lineart or something <3 for my sanity?


While you are by no means required or pressured to tip, I do also like to eat food and pay bills! :D If you do tip, tell me and include your LJ name. This is important, because I will be coloring all tipped icons!

If I get OVER $70 in tips, I will color ALL the icons! C:

Request Form
Theme or pose:

Request Away!

Click the adorable doggy to leave a tip!

9/18/10 02:07 am - SAW THAT UGLY WOLF MOVIE.

It was awful. Not unexpectedly awful, and not the worst movie I have seen, but not something I should have paid $21 to see >:|

but I saw it with Night, Jin and WENDY, so that was pretty rad. WE LOLLED HARDCORE.

srsly one of the wolves said "Oh, it loosens up the knots really well" and we we just.....died. LUCKILY we were the only ones in the theater and didn't horrify anyone with our derp.


-obvious knot jokes-
Wendy saying that it would be a perfect movie to splice porn scenes into ( fight club reference )

but really, just a disney knock- off sparkledog shitfest :( DO NOT SEE FOR MORE THAN $1

IN OTHER NEWS ~~*~*~*~*~*~

These are who I am driving to FF:


This is who is in my room:


because I don't want to forget again.

8/28/10 06:04 pm

Didn't get dealer's space at MFF. @___@ because once again, I waited, noticed they were still open when I finally got the cash, sent my check, and then found out they'd pretty much been closed since I mailed in my form. THIS IS WHY I PREFER ONLINE. Too much of a waiting period, and I can't just...impulse book a table :P what a fucking pain in the ass.

oh well, now I have money set aside to get a table at AC :P

8/23/10 07:57 am - FA IS NOT MYSPACE

UGH. SRSLY. If you're just some 13 year old scene kid trying to get laid on FA, GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FANDOM.


seriously, I see SO MANY kids on FA who have a ton of "I love yiff/sex/I'm gay" icons all over their profile, and NOTHING furry in their gallery, except maybe them wearing a tail and ears or something. Just...pictures of them wearing these HIDEOUS outfits and taking 'artsy' photos of themselves mostly naked.


and seriously, one day you will look back on these pictures and see how you dressed and your hair and you will DIE OF SHAME.

/grumpy old man.

GOD IT'S 8 AM AND I HAVE WORK IN 3 HOURS @_____@ why work. why. You know mornings are really hard for me, why do you randomly fuck with my schedule like this? As much as I hate 4 hour shifts, I really prefer working at 5.

7/31/10 05:37 am

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lol haven't posted in a while. HUR. Nothing exciting here.

blew a tire on my BUS the other day, which sucked. >:| went to go get a new tire today, turns out all 4 of our tires are completely the wrong size, since they're only designed to hold 1500 lbs each, and we needed ones that will hold at least 2000 lbs >:U wtf is this shit. so now we're getting 4 new tires. I am so fucking excited I could just vomit.



that's what my landlord said. He is so fucking right and it makes me rage.

Also watched my drunked redneck family blow off fireworks the other night. that was HILARIOUS. xD My uncle came up from Florida and he and my mom got raging drunk and bought somewhere around $400 worth of fireworks and blew them off over the lake she lives on. HILARIOUS. My mom's boyfriend kept knocking them over and shooting them at us while we were watching. And then they threw the 'duds' which...were actually still active...into the bonfire. :P Thank you crazy family with WAY TOO MUCH FUCKING MONEY. You are my #1 source of amusement.

OTHER THAN THAT. Life as usual C:

6/8/10 03:35 pm - looking for redlines

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Looking for redlines if anyone can help C: something just seems off about the pose, and I just can't figure it out ;=;

5/30/10 10:57 pm


C: ark and I found an awesome van within our price range. Going to look at it again tomorrow, test drive ( I CAN REACH THE PEDALS IN THIS ONE :D :D :D ), and MAYBE maybe maybe put a down payment on it <3 gotta see if we can get financing, but I think we have a good chance. We had a friend of ours who knows cars look at it with us, and it looks GREAT. it's in like...perfect condition inside, and only has a few dings outside, and it's all well maintained.

We're going to get my dad to hopefully come with us to check it out tomorrow, and see if we can't talk them down a few hundred on the price.


http://www.wholesalersunlimited.biz/apps/webstore/products/show/1425548 C: it is so cool. Definitely not saving the environment, but GAWD I want to drive a car the size of a bus. MAYBE PEOPLE WILL STOP HITTING IT.


sooooooo Night, Jin, and Nushaa! :P

I finally got the cost for gas ( assuming we're driving the same car. idk. it's up in the air right now ), and it's going to be $40 per person. :3 this should easily cover all tolls, gas and the inevitable 2 hours we spend lost in the middle of Pennsylvania.

Our plan is to have everyone come over wednesday night, so we can leave early thursday. :3 We're also planning to leave PA on Monday morning.


5/28/10 11:48 pm - CAR SHOPPING :D

I test drove a conversion van today.


do want c: it was all HUGE and COMFY inside, perfect road trip car. BUT OH MY GOD. Biggest car I have ever driven, it was terrifying. It was so high up. Also the seats just barely go up far enough that I can reach the pedals :( But it wasn't bad to drive, not that it would be something I would want to drive around every day, because beyond the BEATLYNESS of it, it didn't accelerate like....at all. xD but it was super comfy. Also like $7000, so way out of our price range, and definitely too much to spend on a car that probably gets the worst gas mileage ever :(

Think i may try to convince Ark to look at minivans, even though he hates them. Station wagons are kinda hard to find now a days D:

Although, the subaru ones are kinda cool looking 8) tons of places around here have them, but ugh, AWD is dumb and all subarus have it and it's just a pain in the ass @@

Anyone who knows anything about cars want to suggest something? XD neither of us know anything about cars, so we're kinda going on the hope that the people at the used car places know what they're talking about when they tell us about the cars we look at xD

5/26/10 01:43 am


Ark made me come to work with him :( so I'm researching some cons to go to this summer. since....AC is my last con til FF. NOT OKAY GUYZ.

I'm thinking Indyfurcon. New con, but it looks promising. and even if it's not great, it's not HUGELY expensive. x: other thoughts were Megaplex and MFM, but both would cost me upwards of $400 in gas just to get there, and I don't know that I could make even that back @@


Anyone know anything about any of those cons? D:

5/22/10 10:43 pm - I have weird dreams

Ark told me I needed to post it because it was weird as shit.

i don't remember much of the context to the dream, just like, a scene from it. I was driving to a Cinnabon ( yeah, I am THAT much of a fattie ). There was some dude on a...motorcyce-scooter-vespa thing, who must have already been to the cinnabon, cause he had one of his own. Which was apparently some sort of to-go cinnabon, which was like a plain bun with a canister of frosting in a hold in the middle of the bun ( I don't know why it was a to-go. It just...was ). For some reason, the dude...threw or dropped or SOMEHOW MOVED the to-go cinnabon onto the back of my car and it landed on the bumper. Then he disappeared.

I looked around for him for a few minutes to return it. Got bored, couldn't find him, so I parked and headed into the cinnabon. But right before I went in, I saw my mom in there, so I ran back to my car and just ate the other guy's to-go cinnabon instead. Which ark pointed out, when I told him about this, was gross because it was on our disgusting car, but it was okay because it was wrapped in plastic.

I HAVE AN EXCITING SUBCONSCIOUS. Which...apparently craves cinnabon. I guess it's not that surprising, I fucking love cinnabon. I would live on them if I could ;=;

5/15/10 01:15 pm - Fuck Life.


new car is totaled.

Back to the volvo. Fuck.

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5/13/10 04:58 am

ok, derp, second post in half an hour, but I feel this needs its own post. And I need a happy post.

I love the improvement meme. Personally, it gives me hope. I guess most of the time I don't realize how much older and more experienced than me the artists I admire are. I tend to...get stuck in a mindset that "I should be x amount of good, since I get paid for this!" and I get all down because other artists are better and I feel so far behind. And then I see these memes, and it makes me step back and realize that I'm 18, I have no formal training, and only recently started to focus on my art as a serious profession. Most of the people I end up sort of comparing myself to or wanting to be like are a good 5 years older than me, and many have gone to college or at least took classes in high school. Seeing their work at 18-19 makes me feel like I'm going along at an okay pace, and that being able to do something well comes with time and effort.

Which is...a given. But sometimes I feel a lot older than I am, especially in the way of art because I've been doing it for a living for so long. It's just a step back that puts things into perspective for me. It makes me realize I'm not awful, I just have a lot more learning ahead of me and that where I want to be with my art will gradually come with time and work.

Just a little zen moment to kind of balance out all the chaos I feel right now @@

5/6/10 04:52 pm

finally...done this fucking semester. that was some crazy stupid shit. I still have finals next week, but...really I'm done. There's no more art, just have to go in for a final review, so it doesn't matter. but oh my god, was that a killer semester :| just because of one teacher with an overinflated ego. fuckin...urgh.

but whatever. it's over. I'm not going back. I'm really set on it this time @-@ no more of this being guilted into going back or scared into it or whatever. Just DONE. I'll probably take a year off and find a different school, see if I can't get loans or something. :P

anywhos, going to upload a few things I did in class that I liked. I wish I had a little more to show for 2 semester's worth of work, but I lost a lot of stuff and I honestly didn't do much I was proud of :P

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In other newssssss. I think i'm going to take a nap and then start on Ryn's feet and hopefully make at least one hat. maybe some other stuff. tomorrow I should be working on some 'roo legs ( FINALLLLLYYYYYY ) and Pye's head. might try to sew pawpads onto all the paws on my desk either today or tomorrow :3

3/29/10 02:38 pm

Productive is NOOOOOOO

:( I am so fucked for AB. I have, at this point, 35 hats. My goal is 70. But. I didn't make any saturday, because I had work from 11-7. Then I didn't work yesterday, because I decided that a day off was in order, because my back has been in ridiculous pain, which was infinitely worse after 8 hours on a register. So. rested, and I feel better.

But today I have homework ( like...3 week of overdue homework, oh boy. ) and tomorrow I have 13 hours of school. :| so no work then.


Well, I suppose if I can get up to 50 i'll be ok. And maybe I'll take some commissions at the con. o: assuming I leave at like 8 every night, it shouldn't be too hard to manage.

And now i'm sitting around twiddling my thumbs because I am soooo not full of energy ;=; homework is tedious and I am just not ready for it. D:

3/18/10 01:22 am

I appear to have finally figured out a sleep schedule that works for me. Get up at 1 pm, stay up til 4 am. [: which works because I am rested, awake enough to work, and awake when Ark is working ( since he works nights ) so I don't get distracted by him >3<;

and next week I get to go back to 7 am classes and misery because I can no longer function due to tired. wonderful. ;=;


Leaving for Lunacon tomorrow. Still have no word on my sewing machine. :x NEEDS to be back by Monday, or I am FUCKEDDDDDD for AB. unless I sell nothing at Lunacon. Which would suck.

OH OH OH! KEI! I dunno if Ark told you, but I am no longer working thursday, so we can leave whenever. We were thinking 4. buuuuuutttttttt we're pretty much open to anything. (:

3/14/10 12:51 pm


so, yes, in addition to everything else I own that I need, my sewing machine has now joined the ranks of broken machinery in my life. After 20 years of going strong, it has essentially just quit at what could possibly be the most inconvenient time.

I have 2 major cons ( not furry, anime :( ) to sell hats at in the next 3 weeks, and at this point, next to nothing to sell ;=; along with 3 suits that are all in various stages of needing to be sewn.

I'm calling a repair place tomorrow, so we'll see how this goes. This may be a false alarm and they can fix it in a day or something :P

but whyyyyy the fuck does everything have to shit the bed and DIE when I have the least money? this couldn't all have happened when I lived with my mom and had no bills to pay? FAAACCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKK YOU LIFE.

3/10/10 07:40 pm

Have I mentioned it lately? Being poor is LAME. :[

just got my $550 payment for the suit I sold last month.

It's already all planned out to be gone. ;==; $50 to ship the suit, $200 to my overdue car payments, $200+ to save for rent, the rest to the credit card companies for car fixes @@

and the $200+ I made on badges last week? Straight to rent and bills and food ;=;

not to mention my sketchbook auction flopped D: had soooo much hope for that.


-rolls around-

on the upside, I am sorta churning through hats ( AND NEEDLES, FACK. broke 4 in a DAY ) and suits, so I'm finally like...really doing work fast enough to actually make money off of it! xD also ark and I are considering trading in our car for one with significantly less BROKEN and VOLVO in it. @@ no more 4 wheel drive prz. that shit is expenseeeve.

2/26/10 06:13 pm



we are $100 short on our rent, not to mention that we also have the electric bill, car payment ( 2 months overdue because FACK DO I HATE WRITING CHECKS :P and driving to my mother's house to pay her ), and laptop payment.


I hate echecks. I WOULD HAVE $500 RIGHT NOW....except people sending ECHECKS instead of actual paypal payment. to everyone who commissions...please, transfer the money to your paypal and pay that way. echecks are mean.

also AB gave me a table. which is awesome, but now I'm short $80 because I had to register RIGHT THAT SECOND OMG. @@ bleh.

SHOULD HAVE BUDGETED BETTER UGH. ;=;but it seemed like things were going so well... bleh.

2/19/10 07:23 pm



things just keep EXPLODING.

First, my laptop charger dies. It's under warranty( I've only had the computer 5 months), but FUUUUUCCCCKKKKKKK if I can figure out how to get Dell to send me a new one. So I bought a new one @@ got a semi-local ( an hour drive away @@ ) computer store to order one for me. Finally got that in. Whooo. great. Get to drop $30 on something that should have lasted AT LEAST 5 years. FACK. No more new shit, no more buying expensive things online. At least in a store, if it breaks, I can go scream at someone who speaks my language >:|

Secondly, and much, MUCH worse, my CAR shit the bed. @@

it's been leaking coolant for weeks now, so we took it to SOME GUYS WHO SUCK, and they charged us $40 to attach a clamp and also to tell us how much other shit is broken. But now our car just PISSES fluid, even worse than it did before @@ which really, is nothing in comparison to EVERYTHING ELSE that died that day.

One of our tires died. meaning we now needed 4 BRAND NEW TIRES. Which ran us about $500. OH YAY ALL WHEEL DRIVE.

Our BRAKES finally gave out. we've been going on the rotors for a few weeks now, and because of that, we blew the calipers, which meant brakes ended up running us $900 and left us without a car for a day and a half, and now leaves us $1400 in debt.

In addition to those, we need to come up with $300 for a new tie rod, $700 for timing belt and water pump, motor mounts, strut bushings, and a windshield. which is supposed to run us $3000 all together ( with the tires and brakes @@ )

Plus a commissioner backed out yesterday, meaning I'm down $65 that I already had, plus the $145 I was supposed to be getting when I finished.

REALLY UNIVERSE. Does it all have to happen NOW? Can't we spread these over like....a few months? Years? Please?

so much for quitting michaels. @@ ugh, at least my dad offered to help me out with money. but fuuuuucccckkkkkkkkkkkk I am tired of shit happening.

2/5/10 10:22 pm - Almost done!

Finally done my puppy! :D well.. mostly. still trying to figure out what to do with the mouth, and he needs neck fur. otherwise, done! <3

2/5/10 02:03 pm - a rant on critiques and advice

I find it annoying when people refuse critique or advice.

long rant is looooonnnggggggCollapse )

2/2/10 05:45 pm - /rage

I swear. I am just going to rename this icon my michael's face.



I ask for 2 DAYS OFF a week. JUST 2. FOR SCHOOL. You don't even schedule me more than 2 days a week ANYWAYS.



>:| I asked for tuesday and thursday off, plus saturdays atm til Ark and I figure shit out. and they REJECTED IT. so I pestered my manager. and was like UHRHUR can't work those days. and he was like K. WILL FIX.

AND APPARENTLY DIDN'T. cause I just got a call like "where are you? D: you're supposed to be in at 5:30, we're expecting you ( probably for register but idk )"

FUUUUUUCCCKKKKKK YOOOOOUUUUUUU. ]:< if they fire me for that shit then I QUIT.

1/31/10 04:45 pm - moar pics!

woof woof woof woof!


he should be done within the week! Still needs eyes, neck fur, and mouth/ear details. [:

yay! any price suggestions? :P it's been a long time since I sold a partial...

1/25/10 07:34 pm

I don't usually post pictures of suits here, but I want to put the pictures somewhere, and they're not really...fursuit LJ worthy :P

Foamwork of a new head. [: trying something new ( a step backwards, in a way ^^; ) by making a non moving jaw.


Made to go with some pieces that I made a long time ago that are....probably gone forever @.@ we'll see!

He'll be on furbuy/furbid at some point! <3 hoping to fur him wednesday :P

1/24/10 06:53 pm


why...do people on the internet hit on me? it's even more confusing than the people who hit on me in person...

I'm neither attractive, nor friendly, and I make no secret of the fact that I'm very much taken. D: so WHY are there still people out there asking ( quite openly, too ) if I will sleep with them?

oh furries....


1/18/10 01:31 pm

Dear Anime Boston Artists Alley,


EVERY YEAR...Every goddam year I sign up for your artists alley. and EVERY YEAR there is SOME SORT of problem. For the last 3 years I have sold at your convention and ALWAYS HAD A PROBLEM.

This year, however, takes the cake. I signed up in a timely fashion. I submitted my application properly. I did everything to ensure smoothness of this process.

AND NOW YOU'RE SAYING I WANT "TOO MUCH SPACE"?!?! After 3 years of selling at your convention and dealing with sharing a table with the dregs of the anime art society, I am not ENTITLED to PAY for an entire table? You'd rather give out the tables to a bunch of stupid shit animu fantards doodling chibis who WONT'T SELL SHIT? As opposed to the actual ARTISTS who keep your alley going by actually creating work worth PAYING FOR?


1/10/10 12:25 pm


Sometimes...I think I live in the wrong decade.


I think everything in that house is wonderful ( barring the hideous wall paper. Even I can't muster up any love for that ). Everything should be yellow. And sunken living rooms are just...without a doubt...the most amazing rooms ever.

These are also very awesome 8]




I love unique houses 8D

1/7/10 07:41 pm


In case it's still news, my mother is a cunt.

she's now telling my grandmother, among other things, that by trying to continue school I'm essentially stealing money from her. Because she thinks if she pays my tuition, I won't go back, and she'll have paid for a semester for no reason.


she had my grandmother email me to talk to me cause I'm 'ignoring her'. but really, I just...don't have anything to say to her besides fuck off and die.

I'm so tired of her crap. She wants me to 'come back' so we can talk and live togeter again. FUCK THAT SHIT. Taking out a loan in my name, telling me you think I'm essentially stealing from you because I can't afford to have you transfer the insurance I don't even WANT into my name is I MISS YOU COME HOME?


die in a fire you stupid cunt. stop playing people against me. shit's hard enough without your stupid games.

12/3/09 10:48 am

Just an update on the moving/whatever, since FA's down so I can't like...broadcast this to the whole net...

We do have most of our stuff here, I plan to spend the day cleaning, we were SUPPOSED to get a dresser and desk today, but my dad's busy so we can't go over. But it shouldn't be a problem.

Life should be back to normal soon. [: LOCAL PEOPLES! COME VISIT! :D -pokes everyone-

also we have net. because our neighbors apparently don't lock their wifi. YAY.

okiedokie, back to cleaning <3

11/30/09 10:28 am

I hate my job.

i suppose most people do, and considering my job, it's not surprising.

but i hate it especially today.

I was supposed to work 10-4 today. good shift. I was thrilled. Could finish moving, and go to the meet. YAY.

but NOOOO.

After clocking in at 9:55, I found out I was scheduled 12-7:30. Apparently "monday and thusday shifts are ALWAYS subject to change". Said my manager. who pretty much blew me off when i asked what I should do about having clocked in 2 hours early. Thanks Jeff. Thanks. I hate you. so much.

>:| because really guys, i don't have enough stress with moving and shit. I needed a little more in the way of HERE'S ANOTHER HALF A POINT HUR SURPRISE.


11/25/09 09:03 am

Back from MFF :D I am TIRED. We got home at 10 last night after leaving at noonish Monday >.>;; stopped off in CT on the way home, crashed on D's futon, and saw the new twilight movie. which...is terrible. No surprises there.

Anyways, con was fun and profitable. Wish I had spent a little more time getting to be with friends I don't see often, but I really needed the money for moving =[ Had a ton of fun hanging out with Rensis and being the dumbest people we could be XP SMELL THE ELEVATOR DENIAL.

People were nice, sales were good, drive....wasn't terrible >.>; tho ark is right, we may need to bring some sort of sedative on the next trip so I just curl up in the back and sleep instead of panicking because someone else is driving ;.; i am such a spaz lol

11/16/09 06:56 pm


December 1st.


11/15/09 12:42 am

I think i broke something in my foot ;=;


I hope I didn't, I"m really not supposed to call out of work, but I can barely stand, let alone spend a day on register, or run around the store. think I may go to the doctors if it still feels this bad tomorrow ;=;

In other news...ran into an old friend today. was interesting because I'd been thinking about her earlier. She seems to have...gotten less retarded as of late. I kind of hope we start talking again. Every so often we talk, and I realize how much I miss the comfort of knowing someone for so long. =/

11/11/09 11:28 pm

=.= god i just... need to fucking punch my mother. in the teeth. with a hammer.

So, there's this /rule/ in my house. Ark and I are not allowed to be upstairs, in the same room together after 10 pm. This is dumb, but manageable.

Usually, we go downstairs and watch movies on my laptop in the kitchen. it's relatively private for a house with an open floor plan, so it's alright. As long as there isn't too much extraneous noise, anyways. However, our living room tends to...magnify sound. Cathedral ceiling, they do that. Anyways, into tonight.

We head down at about 10:30 to continue watching a movie. I shut off the TV, as it's obvious no one is watching it, my brother's off wandering the house, mum and jon are in the basement. Not doing nay harm to anyone if I shut it off. As soon as I do this, however, my mother walks in. Here is our conversation:

Mum: Did your brother go to bed? I think he was watching that ( bear in mind, my brother is always "watching that". if he didn't have to go to school, he'd never shut the TV off. My mother was proud of him when he managed to simply identify that he watched different shows. not kidding )
Me: Well, he's upstairs doing something. So I guess he's done.
Mum: No, I sent him upstairs for something. He has priority.
Me: What? Why?
Mum: Because you have your own room. Your space. Go there if it's too loud in here.
Me: But...he has his own room... 2 of them... why can't he watch TV there? ( yes he has 2 rooms. Yes, he has cable in both of them. and 2 tv's. Neither of them had cable when we moved in. Are you guys getting the picture yet? )
Mum: He has priority. He was watching TV.
Me: Well then can Ark and I go hang out in my room?
Mum: He can go to his room, you can go to yours.
Me: -blank stare of confusion and hate-
Mum: Oh, what? Are you going to tell me I SUCK now? Are you going to tell me I SUCK like you tell everyone you talk to I SUCK?
Me: -blank stare of more hate-

:| I am...so full of hate. God. this bitch. needs to grow a fucking brain.

EDIT. more stupid. Remember the canobie tickets? That she wanted for free? Agreed to give me $10 for them. and then. took them. Guess who didn't get $10. >:|

11/11/09 04:26 pm

well fuuuuuccccccckkkkk yoooooooooooouuuuuuu livejournal. >[ I posted last night. with a meme.

it is now nowhere to be found. FULL OF THE GAY.

anwyays. I have had all of today off. I just realized it's nearly 5, I'm still in my pajamas, and I have done nothing.

nothing. at. all.


goodbye, plans for my day off.

maybe I'll get to them tomorrow. which I believe... I also have off, assuming my schedule was fixed ( My availability! IT IS SET FOR A REASON! >[ ) I...repeatedly get scheduled wrong. which is annoying. had to give up an 8.5 hour shift. because. it was 12-8:30 and I have class at 5 >| like...is it really that hard?

baugh i suppose at least I'm loved enough to get hours. wish they would have just hired me at full time if I'm going to work 30 hours a week =| benefits prz?

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